I know this is not an easy book. The whole series doesn't make it easy for you, but this one, narrated in second person, is quite the thing. But there's a good reason to the narration style in this book. Just one of the many surprises awaiting us. There's so much I missed or couldn't have known while reading it for the first time. So, while rereading the whole series, I decided that there will be a third reread in my future.