This is what my depression looks like.
This is what my depression looks like.
In a bid for openess, I am letting you know that the last few months have been really tough for me. I have had some good days & moments, still managed to smile & feel happy for a while but underneath it all, I've had a dark black cloud looming. A numbness that steals the happiness and a sadness I can't truly shake. After a particularly bad anxiety attack last week, I got worse. Today I increased my meds in a hope to feel better soon. Wish me luck?
This is a pic of my bed, of which I haven't been in since 2am. It is now 12:41. It was not voluntarily. I'm exhausted. I just got home from an important dr's appt to decide what to do about my uterus, where I also had a biopsy done. I want to cry. But I can't. Because the house has to be cleaned and clothes washed and dishes done. Apparently my fiancee cannot do any of that.
Thanks for letting me vent, Littens.
I have suffered with depression for years and when bad things happen in my life I find it very difficult to stay on track. Books are my release, for a few hours a day I can lose myself in someone else's life. Today I really need to lose myself so I'm hoping that I can do that. I know that some Littens will know exactly what I mean, more so than my family and friends.
This isn't book related, but I'm just in shock at the death of Chester Bennington of Linkin Park. When I was a sophomore in high school, I couldn't get enough of this "new and awesome band." Their music helped me through some tough teenage years and, though I haven't fully cried yet, I feel such sadness. If you know anyone who is depressed and/or talks about suicide, please encourage them to seek help.
This new series from Penguin includes some great short reads. Most of the texts are excerpts from longer books, but the specifics are included on the back of each release. It's been a long time since I've read any Styron so this was the obvious choice for my next read.
Welsh cakes, tea and reading 💕☕️ I can't really explain how much I need this right now. Reading saves me.
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