No matter how hard you try be what you once were, you can only be what you are here and now. Time hypnotizes. When you‘re nine, you think you‘ve always been nine years old and always will be. When you‘re thirty, it seems you‘ve always balanced there on the bright rim of middle life. And when you turn seventy, you are always and forever seventy. You‘re in the present, you‘re trapped in a young now or an old now, but there is no other now to be seen