But Joy Division was something else. A shy apocalyptic punk poet meets manic but melancholy pop. This was the cutting edge and I was on to it early, ... It was urgent and when a shy young engineering student like me heard it at the awful parties Tanya took us to ... I would be transformed... there I was ... dancing like Ian Curtis, ... , arms everywhere, anywhere. It was not until years later that I learned he was an epileptic.